I'm in a foul mood and want nothing more than to down a pizza, french fries, or ice cream. I'm in a bad enough mood that I want all three.
And in the past, I've done just that, usually along with a liter or two of diet coke.
Honestly? It did make me feel better. For a few hours at least, that feeling of being stuffed full of delicious food really did perk up my mood.
But nowadays I have no such outlet. Because all of these foods are on my banned list. And not because of weight loss-because of my health condition.
I hate the deprivation. But I just have no choice. If I eat like that, I won't just have to do an extra TKD workout or eat more fruits or veggies the next day, I'll be in AGONY for days and have strange things coming out of my body. I've become ridiculously sensitive to any dietary abnormality. My body rebels like a 14 year old girl.
I'm trying to find other coping methods. At the height of my ire, I took a ten minute walk out in the sunshine, but I'm still frustrated.
And another stupid thing? Even though I'm not eating any of this delicious stuff, I'm still stuck at the same damn weight. AAAAARRRRGGGHHH!
Ok. Ending rant now.